So I thought I would wait and write this today rather than yesterday because when I go into overload... I go into overload. I sat in the room during yesterday's rehearsal watching the slides, reading the script, listening to comments and suggestions and all I could do was crawl in my Alice in Wonderland hole and hide....waiting for it all to be over. Almost nothing worked the way I thought it might. And everyone had a suggestion. After everyone left and Steve went out for the evening I just sat there for I don't know how long and waited for the world to stop moving and for life to come back to a regular pace. Breathe in, breathe out. Once it did I could go back to thinking clearly and work to figure all of this out. I picked myself up, and got back to work on all the various pieces of the production.... I think if anyone ever asked me to describe myself with one word I would say "self-reliant." But when I go into overload... sometimes I wish it was in my DNA not to be.
I know it is a momentary roadblock, but as someone who views the glass as half full... now I know where the other half of the glass went.... all over me.