Some days it works, and some days it doesn't. I can see where the "moments" are supposed to be in this play, then when I reach for them they feel just out of my grasp. Ugh! Three weeks from today we open this production... I haven't been able to make a full connection to the character as of yet. I get glimpses but I really feel like I am "acting" rather than being. I go back to all of my class exercises, but I still am missing the mark.
Some days I get a line or two of dialogue to fit just right, and then it's gone. The arc of the piece isn't quite an arc yet. This is me rambling and feeling a little bit at loose ends. Maybe it's that I don't want to really connect to Melissa and her manic behavior. How can anyone "love" that person? Or maybe I'm afraid that there are times I am just like Melissa. What the hell am I talking about.... I don't know.... Fear.
This is me being afraid of falling on my face in three weeks. Man, I hate when that happens. Please don't let it happen. I need the acting gods to shoot me something that makes the lightbulb go off and I see which direction I need to go in next. Hopefully sooner rather than later.